The slow bow of a cello
scraping across strings
reverberation in loss
if her face betrayed
all the pain inside
if her face was a building it would collapse
where the ravage and gaps exist
you cannot see
all the times she’d been
pealing back her expressions one by one
a window without covering
someone sitting at a table
running her bare empty hands along the scarred wood
fingers without rings without bonds
falling against the door frame
hearing the echo
feeling the pain reach in and pull
until only music sounds
the songs we danced to when I was whole
believing what didn’t kill you
made you stronger
then how is it since you
tore out my heart and shredded it
with all the words you gave me over the years
like confetti
I have not been able to stand
without collapsing
I am now set at an angle of grief
you say oh in time all things heal
that must be your experience
maybe when you said you were honest with me
you weren’t honest with yourself
and what would destroy a mortal man
does not get too deeply embroiled
you are after all
by your own omission
someone capable of closing yourself off
feeling nothing
I would that I had learned that art
it may be a month
or ten
but I will stand here again
grief will mark my place
as if no time had passed and no lifting assuaged
the heartache of your betrayal
what can I do to change the outcome
looking down the road and seeing only hurt
I would do anything to change how I will feel
but you have me tied to your world
even as you
leave mine
emptied of love